A (healthy) dose of poetic justice

Life can be so strange at times. Have you ever realised that the more you don't want something to happen, all the more it does? It's as if there's some sort of twisted divine inverse relationship between wanting something, and getting it.

It is fitting and somewhat ironic that, having been in ALD for exactly 1 year & 1 day, I find myself in a rather interesting (some might say sketchy) situation. Just when I was getting ready to sit back, relax (not in the literal sense of the word) and slowly wind down my remaining 4 months, my world suddenly gets turned upside down after a single phone call and a trip down to the registry.

Alas, this must be justice being served for my rather laid back attitude in recent weeks. This was hardly the opportune moment for someone new to come in. But alas, God's timing is perfect. I am now perpetually on my toes - for the entire day.

I am now an upperstudy (i.e. mentor to the person who will eventually take over me after I ORD). My every move will now be scrutinized, and finally - I have to hold myself to account for my own sky-high standards. As my encik told my understudy, "Luke has set the KPI (key-performance indicators). You either rise above it, or meet it. But you must never fall below it."

I believed that I had learnt every lesson that NS had to teach me. How wrong I was. NS has saved it's best for last. They say that your education is never truly complete until you become the teacher. I am learning that truth every single day. After everything I've learnt, the time has finally come to transfer this knowledge. This last 3 months & 30 days will possibly be the most challenging out of the entire 24 month-long NS. This is when I build my legacy. The training I give my understudy will be my legacy. And hopefully in time, he will grow out of my shoes and walk in his own.

Wow. We're talking about legacy issues here. It is now my job to ensure that he rises above my standards. He must be better than me. Or at least that's the goal that I've set for myself. Benchmarks & standards - They're all there to be bettered.

I find that with each passing day, certain views and hidden prejudices of mine are being brought to light. I've always thought of myself as a rather objective person (honestly!), but it seems that even the best of us find it difficult to be impartial (how humble of myself). I must now overcome my prejudices if I am to do a good job of things.

Dear God, I know I'm going to be in for a challenging & exciting final ride. Help me to come out of this ride unscathed, stronger and wiser. Cause after that, the world's waiting.